Last night, my heart broke for my baby sister... She will probably kill me for writing this but I have to get it out... Growing up, I tried to protect her all the hurt in our home... I would stand up to my father and try to make him see the error of all his ways... I would try to push my mother to leave... I finally had to accept after years that it was not my relationship... I could not change any of it... I just had to accept it and know that I wanted nothing like that relationship... At one point, I had verbally abusive relationship, and I finally got out of it... Now I have a wonderful husband who treats me like a queen and while we disagree sometimes because we are both stubborn people, we are happy and I thank God everyday that I met such a wonderful man!... Anyways we were watching the Superbowl and my dad mentioned that Allison and him were going to Myrtle Beach Bike Week... and then my mother told him that prom was scheduled for that Saturday... He blew up and started yelling at her... It was beyond Allison's control... It's her senior prom... I don't understand how someone can be a parent and so self-centered at times... Honestly, he should wait until next year when she is in college and go. It would be easier to coordinate... Then I found out that he blew up about the cost of her prom dress... Allison is a good girl... She is such a wonderful young woman... She is gracious, and kind... She has a big heart and so much love to give... She rarely gets in trouble... She is a 4.0 student... She is an all state athlete in three sports... I mean she is truly amazing... I am so proud of this girl I can't even put it into words... She is absolutely beautiful on the inside and out... Whenever we have went Prom dress shopping, it's always about the cost of the dress... So what if she loved the way the dress fit or looked, if it was over $200 it was out... This dress was $184... by far not unreasonable in my opinion, especially considering the amount of money my father makes... I walked into the bathroom because she was giving Mackenzie a bath because she was covered in sucker lol and she just started crying... My heart broke... She said she wasn't going to do either... I just rubbed her back and told her to not let him get her down... She deserves to go to her Senior Prom that he was just being grumpy...
He should never have made her feel terrible about wanting to go to Prom... She will be in college soon and then working... She should be encouraged to be a teenager and enjoy this night... She wasn't asking for an $800 dress... before I left home, I would have told him about himself and we would have had an all out war... but as I said I had to learn to accept them for who they are and not try to change them... while my heart breaks for her.. I can't fix it... I can't fix him... I can't change it... all I can do is be there for her to help her in everyway I can... I've been in her shoes... He has tore me down before... and still does occasioally... but the difference is now that I can leave... I have my own home and family to go too.... I don't have to stay under his roof, but she still does... I told her she would be going away soon and it would good better... I know that doesn't help for the now, but it gives her hope...
Don't get me wrong... I love and appreciate everything my father has done for us... However there are alot of things that I don't like and I don't have to respect them... I know that I am very similar to my father in a lot of ways, however I refuse to ever make my daughter feel horrible about such a big event in her teenage years... I never want Mackenzie or our future children to feel like they can't ask us for something... I don't ever want them to think of Daniel or me as a tyrant as I often did growing up... I pray to God everyday to give me strength to be a better person and a parent and I know that he will answer my prayers and help me to grow into the person I want and need to be!
