Every morning I watch the Today show... really it's just background noise while Mackenzie and I eat breakfast and wait on my baby sitting kids to get here for the day... Each day they talk about the current events... I watch... I consider myself semi-informed... My husband often talks about these events and worries about going to war and the economy... We discuss these things... well I mainly listen... While I admit some things may be very worrisome... They are beyond our control... I voted for who I felt was the better candidate... and he lost... So here we are... My thoughts are that I will just put it in God's hands and his will will be done the way he sees fit... Right now, we have a roof over our heads, food on our table, and a steady paycheck that covers everything we need... I use to worry whether or not my lack of feeling or extreme opinion on politics makes me a shallow person... My strongest opinion at most time is lukewarm... I just can't make myself worry or argue about things I can not physically change... I am in no situation to tell you your opinion is wrong... so does this make me a shallow person? Do I have no depth to me because I'd rather read a sappy romance novel then a political novel?
I've struggled with this question alot lately... However, I've came to realize... I can be fiercely passionate when it comes to those I love... I worry about things in my control... and how to fix them... I have a very overactive imagination.... which comes in handy while playing with my crew... I am strong minded and strong willed in situations I do feel passionate... especially when it comes to my daughter... So while I may have lost the desire to go out and be a breadwinner and make executive decisions everyday... I have found that I love trying to teach my daughter how to talk... I love playing pretend with her... I love reading the same short story to her 20 times in a row... So while I would rather watch Blue's Clues or Sofia the First than CNN... and I'd rather worry about what my daughter eats for dinner than whether there is gonna be another war... I have figured out that I am not shallow and weak minded... I am exactly where I want to be... I am exactly where God wants me to be... I am first and foremost a mother and then a wife... and I wouldn't have it any other way!
So it's been over a month since I wrote a blog... but most days there just are not enough hours in a day... I'm currently holding my sleeping teething sweet girl as write this... However it's getting much harder to do anything with her on my lap because she is getting so long... I can not believe how tall she is... We are snowed in with about five inches of snow so it's been a lazy day in our pajamas! I can not believe in 11 days she will be 11 months old... I remember being pregnant and miserable at this time last year... and we were moving... So while most moms are able to clean and nest for the new baby... I was trying to organize the house, and work full time... Daniel was a huge help and we accomplished everything before she came... I have started to plan her birthday party! I decided to go with a Blue's Clues theme because it's the only cartoon that she will sit and watch... She laughs and points at Blue and claps her hand... It is so cute... So I felt Blue's Clues was fitting for her first birthday party... Not mention I'm excited to see her dig into her smash cake with Blue icing! lol
My little sister turned 18 on the 20th of February! At her party, Mackenzie stole my plate and ate a ton of icing and had it all over her. I think she will have a blast in her smash cake... She started walking around her 10 month milestone... and she now is walking most places with her little 'Zombie' walk as we call it... because she keeps her legs stiff... She babbles all the time... She says words... then won't repeat them or laughs when you try to get her to say them... She is usually smiling and truly just brightens my day... Most days we just sit and play all day... and nap during nap time...
We still have no teeth :( She will teeth for weeks... then just stop... I can't feel any knots on her gums... They get white sometimes but that's about it... So when she decided at 10 months old that she wasn't going to eat baby food anymore... I was at a loss... I mean she adamently will not eat it... She smacks the spoon out of my hand and screams if I try to feed it to her... She wants whatever is in my plate... She will let me feed her if it's in my bowl... especially if it's potato soup... I cut up everything in small pieces and she feeds herself... but somedays she won't eat at all... all she will do is drink formula... Somedays I truly feel like a failure when it comes to getting her to eat... Some days all she will is carrots... I struggle with fresh ideas about what to feed her because she doesn't have any teeth... I never ever thought it would be so frustrating to feed a 10 month old... but it truly is... I don't want to raise a picky eater... However, I'm nervous to give her most foods because she has no teeth...
At the end of the day though, she seems happy and doesn't scream because she is hungry so I am assuming I'm something right! She seems so well adjusted and while she can be bashful when she is sleepy... She doesn't usually meet a stranger as long as I'm close by! I am so proud of her and she is becoming so independent... so as sad as I am about her first birthday approaching so fast, I am so excited to see her grow, learn, and develop her personality!
Mom, I'm really tired of listening to Miranda Lambert!
