Am I?

Every morning I watch the Today show... really it's just background noise while Mackenzie and I eat breakfast and wait on my baby sitting kids to get here for the day... Each day they talk about the current events... I watch... I consider myself semi-informed... My husband often talks about these events and worries about going to war and the economy... We discuss these things... well I mainly listen... While I admit some things may be very worrisome... They are beyond our control... I voted for who I felt was the better candidate... and he lost... So here we are... My thoughts are that I will just put it in God's hands and his will will be done the way he sees fit... Right now, we have a roof over our heads, food on our table, and a steady paycheck that covers everything we need... I use to worry whether or not my lack of feeling or extreme opinion on politics makes me a shallow person... My strongest opinion at most time is lukewarm... I just can't make myself worry or argue about things I can not physically change... I am in no situation to tell you your opinion is wrong... so does this make me a shallow person? Do I have no depth to me because I'd rather read a sappy romance novel then a political novel?

I've struggled with this question alot lately... However, I've came to realize... I can be fiercely passionate when it comes to those I love... I worry about things in my control... and how to fix them... I have a very overactive imagination.... which comes in handy while playing with my crew... I am strong minded and strong willed in situations I do feel passionate... especially when it comes to my daughter... So while I may have lost the desire to go out and be a breadwinner and make executive decisions everyday... I have found that I love trying to teach my daughter how to talk... I love playing pretend with her... I love reading the same short story to her 20 times in a row... So while I would rather watch Blue's Clues or Sofia the First than CNN... and I'd rather worry about what my daughter eats for dinner than whether there is gonna be another war... I have figured out that I am not shallow and weak minded... I am exactly where I want to be... I am exactly where God wants me to be... I am first and foremost a mother and then a wife... and I wouldn't have it any other way!